Still here...and a few random thoughts

Life has been pretty busy lately and I sort of let this blog go by the wayside. To anyone who reads it...SORRY!

The good news is that I prefer being busy to being bored or not having consistent plans/things to do. In addition to social (no, not dating - boo!) busy-ness, my work has been unbelievably busy and stressful. Again, in a time of recession and unemployment, I really can't complain.

So, I was irritated with someone the other day and was dying to vent to a friend or anyone who would listen. Since most of my friends are married with children, it's not always easy to catch them at a moment's notice. This is completely understandable.

But, I thought to myself...how many of the couples of the world take for granted that they have an automatic, built-in sounding board for the issues of their day? I mean, I was pretty ticked and sort of needed to talk to someone about it ASAP. Instead, I had to wait until a good friend of mine (who I talk to daily) was available to chat.

It would be so lovely to be able to talk to my spouse, not only about my day, but about life decisions. Sometimes, being single forces you to make decisions about stuff you wouldn't otherwise care about.

For example, I don't care about loan papers and other boring paperwork (yes, I know I should). But, this is exactly the type of thing where I would say, "Honey, I don't care...please go ahead and take care of it." Or, spiders. I absolutely HATE spiders...whether my hubby liked them or not, he'd be the designated spider/bug/creepy crawly thing killer! Or fixing things around the house. I wouldn't say I'm particularly handy, but I've had to LEARN to be, as a result of my single status. I would gladly hand that role over!

I suppose what I wrote above looks like I'm asking for an assistant rather than a mate, but hopefully you get my point. A partner in life is exactly that - they partner WITH you through all things (good and bad). And I would really like one of those in my life! :-)

A younger male friend of mine recently told me (with good intention) that he could see how guys could be intimidated by me. He feels my confidence and independence might intimidate them. Here's the thing, I've HAD to be independent BECAUSE I'm single. Maybe if I'd met someone early on, I wouldn't be the independent rock star (ha ha) I am now.

And being confident? I guess I don't know what to do about that one. I always try to put my best foot forward and typically, I'm pretty nervous in dating situations. So, I'm not sure how I'm faking the confidence card.

Regardless, I'll continue my independence in the absence of a fella and try to live life to the fullest.

Exhibit A: I'm hosting an 80s movie marathon day with several friends this weekend. Can't beat THAT!